wo of them really. One was drowning, just an irrational fear. And the other was something happening to my hands. That's why I taught myself to draw left-handed because I thought, you know, I don't want to have the risk. Very unusual for an artist to teach themselves to draw with both hands. I've never even heard of it. But I had this irrational fear that I would lose the ability to draw with one hand. So I taught myself to draw left-handed, which I have for now a while.

But my right hand got burned out by something called focal dystonia. It's actually the same problem I had with my voice. It's a spasm in a muscle from overuse. So it has nothing to do with that other thing that people get in their hand. It has nothing to do with any other thing. It's focal dystonia is what it's called. So when I got the focal dystonia, I moved to my left hand. But more recently in the last month or two, my left hand has become paralyzed from presumably, I don't know, I'm guessing a tumor that's laying on some nerve or something.

So try to calculate these odds. What are the odds that I would be first