n scenes in all of sci-fi. It's one of the things that really bonded me to that show. I thought good Lord that is such clever complicated writing. I love that. And I had been operating under that for a long time which is an intentional illusion that people are more trustworthy than they are because I didn't know how to live my life with complete cynicism because you couldn't spend any kind of and you couldn't have any kind of a personal life without trusting people, right?

But I did have some, I guess I'm opening up more than I should. I've had some recent experiences in the past year that demolished my sense of trust in human beings. I'm not talking about marriage specifically. I'm talking about human beings. And I've never experienced anything like it or so often. Yeah it was more than one event. That's why it was interesting. So I saw things. I saw parts of humanity that just ruined me honestly. It just ruined me. Now I imagine that's what's happened if you're in a war zone. Yeah imagine if you were in Ukraine right now the things you would see. Your sense of humanity would be completely changed.

And I was always completely aware that I was walking around with an illusion but it was a voluntary illusion like the Minbari like Delenn the head of the Minbari. I wanted the illusion that the people around me were trustworthy and turns out they weren't. So that's a big part of why I decided to become a recluse. I'm going to be honest with you. I can't stand people right now. I just can't sta