nd to be around people in person. And it has nothing to do with the people I'm talking about. People that I genuinely like and have done nothing bad to me like people who are genuinely good as far as I can tell. I just can't stand to be around people right now. Anybody else have that experience? It could be social media that's doing it to me but I think it's actually it was actually my real life that did it to me. Yeah yeah it's and I don't know if I can get it back honestly.

So I'm in a little bit of an existential something. A reset I guess. A reboot. I'm in the middle of a reboot. Is it burnout? I don't think so. It doesn't feel like burnout. No I know what burnout feels like but it doesn't feel like that. So and now add on top of this that like Elon Musk I went through the same process. You know I looked for religious reason to live. Was not persuaded just like Elon. Look for other reasons to live. You know I thought like marriage. I thought if I sort of wrap myself around a family unit like that would be a reason to live. Didn't work out in my case. I'm happy that it worked out for many of you but so as a default and maybe that's not the way to talk about it but my default is I wake up every day and I try to make the world better for other people.

Now I hope you've seen it. You know I talk about the number of people I've cured from various health problems which is very meaningful to me. I really love that. And I've told you I've tried to help many of you in your lives you know be more successful and get love and stuff like that and many of you have. So that's what works for me. So everything that you see me do on social media especially the stuff that looks like I'm just flailing around or being angry or something all of it has a purpose. It all has a purpose. I mean I am enjoying it so that's you know they're always a sub purpose but there's always a larger arc to it and if you didn't know that it would look confusing. So lots of times when I'm causing trouble is I'm just gathering energy and I'm going to use it for something. So once you learn that I do that intentionally you'll start to see it.

But here's what was weighing on me recently and I think he was watching Elon Musk get piled on. Where here's a guy who imagined being Elon Musk. He's watching this Ukraine war and he says to himself nobody seems to be fixing this thing. Nobody's even offered like the bones of what a peace plan would look like but he could. And he knew that people would listen to him. I don't know for sure but he's met Putin right? I think Elon hasn't even done business with Putin because I think there was some SpaceX Russian space thing that maybe they worked together. So he's pretty tapped into the whole world. He knows all the players. And so he puts forward a peace plan which is nothing but helpful and he gets piled on.

And here's the thing that bothered me. The criticisms were just so off base because people said he was aiding Russia. In what world is that aiding Russia? Because all that happened was Ukraine was going to do whatever they were going to do anyway because they were winning. There was nothing that Elon Musk said that was going to stop Ukraine from pressing hard while they're winning. So Ukraine was going to do the same thing Ukraine was going to do no matter what Musk said. But Russia might act differently. And Russia might specifically say well if Elon Musk is putting out a peace plan I guess I don't have to nuke anybody because I've got an exit path now. His plan might not be the one. Maybe it'll be a little more. But as long as you're talking about an exit path you don't nuke.

So what Elon Musk did was he put his personal reputation on the line and he decreased the chance of nuclear war by a lot and he got piled on for it. He got piled on for that. And do you think he was doing that like for his personal benefit? I mean it's personal benefit to avoid nuclear war of course but you knew that he was going to get piled on. So did he. So did he. He did that for you. He did that for you. And then you collectively and then the people he was trying to help from nuclear annihilation just went on to Twitter and then on and I guess I felt that like you know of course that happens to me every day. Every time I try to do anything useful somebody shits on me. And I don't think it bothered me as much when it happened to me but when I saw it happen to him in this specific example I just thought people suck. People really suck. They really really do. Because there's nothing more obvious that he's trying to help and the people saying you know stick to your lane because you don't understand it. Who are you talking about? Elon Musk is the person who should never stay in his lane. Elon Musk is the person you should say hey here's another lane. Have you thought of this lane? Because nobody's doing anything in this lane. Maybe you could do that one too. Because those other lanes came out pretty well.

All right, crabs want to drag you back into the bucket. Affirmation time. So I'll tell you what is giving me enthusiasm lately. So here's a little inside book writing stuff. People always ask me about the process of writing books for some reason. It's of great interest to people even if they don't write books and I could kind of see that. So I'll give you a little insight into it.

So my process has a very much a way up way down way up way down path and it always does and it goes like this. I've got this great idea for a book. This will be so amazing. And I'll write some notes. I think it's amazing. And then I'll start writing the actual chapters and they'll look it over after a while. I'll be like oh that wasn't as good as I hoped. And then I'll write another chapter and